"I lost my best friend," Rihanna explained during the emotional conservation filmed in her home country of Barbados. "Like everything I knew was switched. Switched in a night. And I couldn't control that. So I had to deal with that, and that's not easy for me to understand or interpret. And it's not easy to interpret on camera, not with the world watching."Rihanna said all of the negative attention made it even more difficult to clear her mind. "So it's hard for me to even pay attention to my mind and figuring things out because it now became a circus."Despite being upset with Brown she also felt a need to support him. "I felt protective," she said. "I felt like the only person they hate right now is him. It was a weird confusing space to be in because to be as angry and as angry and as hurt and betrayed, I just felt like he made that mistake because he needed help, and who's gonna help him? Nobody's gonna say he needs help. Everybody's gonna say he's a monster without looking at the source. I was more concerned about him."